SoleSearching

I don't think I've felt truly alone in quite some time. Yet as I sit here late at night, with a mind full of clamor, I wonder about the eternal oneness we are as a whole being. I always had put the notion of solitude on the back burner. However, if one is to really ponder the idea of one being, we must then be alone, as one. Not to say there is not an infinite display of the magnificence of our existence, just that loneliness could very well be on of the most natural attributes of our worldly selves.

Could we possibly be denying ourselves of one of the most richest treasures, by shunning our loneliness? Is it sadness that is at the root? It feels so different. Sadness comes from losing something or someone, a connection that becomes ruptured. But if we are all one, we can't be losing, or for that matter gaining, anything. I like to think we are just culminating the essence of light, the divine ember that animates all of time & space and the dimensions beyond...

Is the emptiness I feel just a portal into a deeper abyss, where I might find new worlds. Why is it I reminisce to the days of past, which i can no longer touch. Somewhere in time they are preserved, if only my gaze could pierce through my daydreaming. If only this moment is all I have, I wonder why am I not digging deeper.

The isolation only seems to induce me further into a slumber. I am not lost, but I no longer know of my whereabouts. I know I should be here, but I can not fathom why I would desire such a venture. What has been forgotten? What truth evades me, and why am I tumbling through this fallacy?!

Why am I yearning for something completely unknown? Why does it permeate me so intricately? Why do I dream of realms beyond the Earth? If this is who I am, what am I to do? Why do i feel so distant from all, when truly I feel the being within coursing through me, and can feel the resonance rippling from every living entity on the planet & beyond the cosmos. If I am so endowed with insight to reach out a hand to humanity, why am I among those who have their heads so distraught in anguish they cannot even see the beauty of the light of the sun & moon? They walk the earth as if only a light bulb was screwed in for household chores...

WHERE is the key to unlock the potential for uplifting the human race?? if there are so many light workers, why not get to WORK! Goodness gracious why are we wasting time with trivial, material, & visceral matters!

Where are the rainforests?! Where are the angels?? Where are the healers of the sick, tired & hungry? why are people still dying??? people still lying?? why is the light not illuminating the darkness????

I know so intimately the weight of the darkness, & the piercing sharpness of light.. it cannot be too heavy to impale! I KNOW! something is holding back... WE are not recognizing the greatness within ourselves yet to its FULLEST; we haven't yet believed in the mystery in its WHOLENESS; We have not radiated the fervor of joy to is BRIGHTEST!

So I implore you (*& of course myself, I mean we are only the one self, so I suppose it is a joint venture, lol) to embrace the solitude you might find yourself in. savor the inner silence